Listen, I don’t want to die, a very painful death, I also fear that because of my obsession with sex I won’t have a good afterlife. But really, what do I have to lose. let’s say the virus doesn’t kill me, and it just blows over in a few weeks. Well, it’s going to take so much work, pain, humiliation, and effort for a possible sperg/mentalcel / 0 self esteemcel like me to fit in, that is just fitting in. If I wanted to get laid or get a relationship I would have to spend at least 2 years restoring my health, spending time working out and on supplememts. For what? What the fuck is the point of squeezing an orange with all your might and getting a nanoparticles sized drop?
I mean I may get a relationship, or laid, but deep down you know it’s a shallow relationship and if she finds a better option she will go for it. So relationsh ips are like trying to plug ■■■■■ in a sinking boat. Jobs are horrible, degradimg, and would need lots of delusional ideas to ■■■■ with that environment. How can I just go back to society knowing they pretty much couldn’t care if poorcels like me and @zero_sum live or die or stay isolated? Being a poorcel makes you see an even sicker society behind the curtain. Knowing all !middle class and above people genuinely think you’re a subhuman.
So I just don’t see the point here. Not saying I want the virus, but I’m melancholic. All I know is that humanity is very, very classist/distinctualist/primal right now. Well always was. I hope God would forgive an outcast and reject for hating his creation and humanity.