A year ago was taking an accounting class. But was depressed and thought about intimacy constantly so I admit I was really depressed and dropped out. But then my parent got really sick and the stress from that would of made me unable to concentrate anyways.
Now I found out an interesting diet/eating lifestyle to raise metabolism and lose weight. But now the virus hits and the economy is gonna stall. So again my plans ahead for health are not gonna happen and I have a higher chance of death because of bad health.
I’m pretty sure I have hypogonadism, hypothyroid.
Also one of my parents lost their job and their credit is really poor. We left our apartment with out providing a 30 day notice. Where I live there is like 10 affordable apartments and I live in a metropolitan area of millions and !millions of people. All the rentals here want 3x the monthly income And credit scores.
It just hits me over and over, we live in a hunger games style brutal world of Darwinian competition. And I just hate normie scums who enjoy this world and were loved by it.